The survivor in this AI-rendered image wasn’t receiving a medal in the real version of this picture because, even if I had a survivor medal to give him, I doubt Dale would accept it.
But he deserves one.
While I knew Dale was a tough bastard who spent time on the streets of Missoula after coming to Big Sky country from Orlando, what I did not know about Dale was how he refused direct orders in 1975 amidst the chaos of American troops exiting Vietnam.
“We were ordered to leave the kids behind,” Dale told me, referring to young orphans at an Vietnamese orphanage. “But we knew what would happen to them if we did–the kids would be raped, murdered, decapitated, and their heads would be put on wood spikes, so we pooled our money and paid some helicopter pilots to evacuate them.”
For saving children from a horrific fate, Dale and the other soldiers who refused direct orders were demoted a rank. Now Dale deeply despises the US military, which is why he never sought out the VA benefits he’s owed.
Dale’s father had a VERY short career playing baseball for the Phillies before the war. “Look him up,” Dale said, so I did.
Dale Eldon “Nubs” Jones (December 17, 1918 – November 8, 1980) was an American Major League Baseball (MLB) pitcher. Jones played in two games for the Philadelphia Phillies in 1941. His only decision occurred in an 8–6 loss to the New York Giants on September 23, 1941.
During World War II, Jones served in the United States Navy in the Pacific. He died on November 8, 1980, and is buried in Arlington National Cemetery.
Dale also wanted me to look up an old actor with the same name, since Dale Robertson was a family friend and threw one hell of a wake for his Dad.
Dayle Lymoine Robertson (July 14, 1923 – February 26, 2013) was an American actor best known for his starring roles on television. He played the roving investigator Jim Hardie in the television series Tales of Wells Fargo and railroad owner Ben Calhoun in Iron Horse. He often was presented as a deceptively thoughtful and modest Western hero. From 1968 to 1970, Robertson was the fourth and final host of the anthology series Death Valley Days. Described by Time magazine in 1959 as “probably the best horseman on television”, for most of his career, Robertson played in Western films and television shows—well over 60 titles in all.
The more recent data point I learned about Dale, though, is interesting when you consider our cultural moment with the Lindsey Clancy mistrial.
Dale was a juror for the Beau Donaldson rape case, which, for those who don’t know, was a pretty big deal for this little college mountain town, though an outsider who read the book ten years later asked on Reddit recently…where’s the impact?
If/when my book comes out, I put Kirsten Pabst’s post-Krakauer career into the context it deserves, using her own words and national efforts to re-cast prosecutors into victims of vicarious trauma to show how the lessons learned locally were all about CONTROLLING NARRATIVES in order to prevent local authority from ever experiencing the terror of actual exposure, especially the Missoula County Sheriff’s Office–an entity never closely scrutinized by the Federal investigation that ensued.
The cultural influence of the University, and the unintended consequence of killing the humanities program on campus, is something I will be writing about soon from a very interesting angle because I want to document some of my most recent research for an interview I have scheduled later this week. More on that later.
Returning to Reddit, according to an anonymous commenter on the above Reddit thread, it was someone working at the University who blew the whistle on UM’s rape culture. Here’s the comment:
Another anonymous commenter framed the impacts like this:
Four months ago, when this Reddit thread was first posted, we had yet to see the modern American woman’s ability to identify with a mother who methodically murders her own three children, but here we are. No wonder a hero like Dale goes unrecognized in the community he’s chosen to live out the remaining years of his life.
As timing would have it, I’ll be recording a conversation later today about the career of Denis Villeneuve and how his early movies, like Prisoners, is part of a larger cultural agenda to re-cast the mythic narrative of “the west” by, in part, redefining what masculinity means, like showing how a prepper father ready to protect his family for any natural disaster finds himself (spoiler) in a race against time to save his kidnapped daughter from a woman who kills children as a means of waging a war against God.
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Starting today I’m showing readers over at my Substack how a pattern-recognizing Virgo Earth Horse like myself is handling the year of the Fire Horse, so check it out.
I have about 250 pages of unpublished research I’ve compiled since the start of this year to edit, revise, and publish as I beat the figurative dead horse and expose the creative output of David Lynch for what it is: a confession.
The fishing metaphor is an apt one to use when it comes to understanding those who mimic natural processes in order to conceal the dangerous hook used to catch you.
Fly-fishing appears prominently in season 2 of Twin Peaks when Agent Dale Cooper suggests he might buy some land and retire to this idyllic fictional town with heavy undertones of Missoula, where fly-fishing has been deeply encoded into this town’s cultural identity thanks to Norman Maclean.
But that’s just the surface of things, where thin screens mediate shallow engagements with reality. If you want to go deeper, just start getting curious about the data staring you right in the face in places like the Missoula County Courthouse, where brief bios of past Sheriffs hang on the wall for all to see.
The name echo of “MacLean” (no relation to Norman) isn’t the only thing interesting from this Sheriff bio describing the man holding this elected position the year David Lynch was born at St. Patrick’s hospital in Missoula. Also noteworthy is the fact Robert MacLean belonged to a Masonic Lodge and presided over the last execution in the state of Montana on the now-auspicious date of September 10th.
Of course, I would argue that the Missoula County Sheriff’s Office is STILL executing people, like Sean Stevenson and Johnny Lee Perry, but that’s just me apparently.
This past week I wrote posts ranging from exposing a shocking lack of security at the Bitterroot’s BSL-4 lab in Hamilton, to an ugly dirty-laundry post about my own family relationships in this new age of excusing mothers for murdering their children, so to better see how these things are related in my “mentally ill” mind, here’s a poem I wrote, a poem that hints at the fact I have the best recorded evidence yet about what happened to Sean Stevenson, and why.
the vector of the virus used to be my wife and when I sailed the box-wine sea I used to have a life but strife it comes in many forms storms, cartels, and death then edges quickly disappeared once badges stopped his breath
on rivers insect hatches provide opportunity to blend something fake for a fish to take with a hook to kill or send back into the water, or perhaps into a pan not the god Jack Parsons sang to but the cast-iron of man
the jester of the palace used to have free reign but, they say, the worm invaded the King's once-sovereign brain insanity does not encompass the fantasy's dark scope stop it with the Unicorns, or start back up the rope
huggingface the skynet chase is more buggy than drugs itching underneath the skin into holes no bandaid plugs fuck the algorithm and tucking tail to run you can have the moon all night... I'm watching close the sun
One final note, while transcribing this poem for today’s post, the music playing through my iPod’s “shuffle” function spoke to me, which has been happening so explicitly lately with my “shuffle” function, a less grounded person might let this phenomenon destabilize them.
For example, while writing a poem about Lynch’s “Black Lodge”, the Anthrax song “Black Lodge” started playing. Then, a few days later, while responding to an email from Adam, who used to do the podcast, titled “Debra Gets Red Pilled”, the Beck song “Debra” started playing.
And today, while transcribing the above poem–which references Sean Stevenson and his euthanized death via the coroner after being put into a coma with a rear-naked CHOKEHOLD–a song from Shipping News started playing, a song with the word “chokehold” coming from my speaker (from a song titled “Now That Your Diamond Lined Star Is Failing You, What Fair Silhouette Would Best Suit This Satellite?”)
Weird? I’d say so. But maybe, after September 19th, the depths of what I’ve been dealing with since Sean Stevenson’s death on January 5th, 2020, will be a little more clear.
This week marks the sad anniversary of my co-worker, Leah Hartley, being found dead in an irrigation ditch at 6th and Grant, near her apartment. I wrote this post about her death, then found myself without work a few months later.
Nothing being proposed by United Way and their suicide prevention program, “Project Tomorrow”, would have helped Leah Hartley’s downward spiral into addiction because that’s not what the “tools” being offered to service industry workers by United Way are designed to address.
When you watch this clip you will hear the amazing insight that bartenders and hair stylists hear things from their customers and, if they hear WORRISOME things from their customers, then United Way wants them to have the “tools” to respond appropriately.
If United Way wants to invest their non-profit resources into transforming bartenders and hair stylists into psychologists doing unpaid mental health work for their fucked up customers, then here’s a suggestion: BETTER COCAINE!
My insights come from actually working in the service industry over the years, like Food For Thought by campus, where the hungover breakfast cook would sometimes vomit in the trash can in the middle of cooking an omelet, or those three hellish weeks at the Iron Horse, where the main chef liked to tell NOT funny jokes about dead kids in his trunk.
Expecting sex offenders and drug addicts to care about their customers as they get paid shit wages in a totally unaffordable town is one of the stupidest ideas I’ve heard in awhile, but, considering Missoula is a collectively retarded liberal college town incapable of dealing with reality, I’m not surprised.
The reality that I see in Missoula is that United Way of Missoula County uses Montana’s high suicide rate to specifically target guns, which is the preferred choice of ending it for men. That’s why United Way amplifies people like Ali at their blog for handing out gun locks, like THAT is going to stop someone who had made up their mind to die. From the link:
In a sparsely populated state where many people own firearms, the small metal contraptions, which fit around a trigger and cost less than $10 on Amazon, are one way Montanans are trying to reduce the high rate of people who kill themselves.
For the past year, Ali, 46, has been giving gun locks away to anyone who wants one, her piece of trying to solve the puzzle of suicide in Montana. “It’s in the culture,” she said one afternoon in Helena. “If you don’t know someone, you know of someone who has died.”
Murder rates and mass shootings make national headlines, defining the discussion over pervasive gun violence. But most gun deaths in America are self-inflicted. There were about 27,000 gun suicides in 2022. That was a record, and far higher than the 19,500 gun homicides documented that year.
There have been more gun suicides than gun homicides in the United States every year for the past 25 years. Yet the harm inflicted on communities by suicides rarely registers in the national debate over guns.
This article featuring a well-intentioned widow handing out gun locks deliberately focuses on guns and “red flag laws” because, we are told, it was the arrival of guns in her own home that enabled her husband to kill himself.
Suicidal impulses can last only briefly, but easy access to a gun makes the urges more difficult to survive. In Montana, 67 percent of suicides in 2022 involved a gun, according to the Times analysis. Nationally, guns were used in about 55 percent of such deaths.
But in a place where guns are embedded in the rugged, frontier ethos, there is little political will to prevent people who are at risk of harming themselves from owning a gun. A proposal to create a “red flag” law, which would prohibit a person determined to be a danger to himself or others from possessing a firearm, died in a committee of the State Legislature last year.
Several years ago, Ali’s husband’s family passed down some firearms that were considered heirlooms, and she agreed they could be stored at her house.
At the time, suicide did not cross her mind.
If I was a bartender serving Ali’s husband drinks before he presumably ate a bullet, I wonder what kind of “red flags” I would have heard? Would I have heard sad confessions, like how unfulfilling being a “mortgage loan officer” was, or the pressure he felt from his wife to maintain their social status by killing whatever dream he shoved down into a dark hole in order to make money for his young family?
John Mullen was working as a handyman at what is now the Whitefish Mountain Resort when they met.
They married in Glacier. A pair of bald eagles circled overhead as they exchanged their vows. “It’s the greatest place on earth,” she said of Glacier.
After their first child, a daughter, was born in 2006, they moved to the Helena area to be closer to John’s parents.
The vice president of a community bank took a liking to John and hired him as mortgage loan officer. He was a natural, tapping his connections across greater Helena where he had lived since he was a boy.
My gut reaction to this widower’s perspective about her dead husband is that NO ONE is a “natural” at enslaving humans into complicated debt instruments called “mortgages”, but being a mortgage loan officer is definitely a financial step up from being just a “handyman” at Glacier, so that’s what a socially affable guy with a wife and kids did until he couldn’t do it anymore.
Three years ago I wrote critically about a bill, introduced by a Bozeman Democrat named Ed, that would have empowered vindictive female partners and dysfunctional families to use the courts for gun removal.
Here’s the quote from that post explaining what the “red flag” bill would do:
House Bill 202, sponsored by Rep. Ed Stafman, D-Bozeman, is a “red flag” bill — a policy that allows for a court to order that an individual surrender their firearms if a family member, partner or law enforcement agency can make the case that the person presents a danger to themselves or others.
The bill would establish “extreme risk orders of protection” allowing a district court to prohibit a person from purchasing or possessing a firearm during the duration of the order. The language, Stafman said, is modeled after the federal Bipartisan Safer Communities Act, a gun safety and mental health services law Congress passed in 2022. The BSCA, among other provisions, includes grants to help states implement extreme risk protection order programs as long as strict due process rights are followed.
Having been on both sides of these court processes, first as a non-profit service provider working with EXTREMELY mentally ill people who the County Attorney’s Office would routinely deny intervention for, then as a supposedly dangerous mentally ill person myself, I can tell you more laws and less rights won’t make anyone safer.
Now, thanks to the Lindsey Clancy case, I have a better appreciation for why rational arguments are a waste of time when dealing with well-meaning Ali’s handing out gun-locks for United Way and the agenda-driven political operators taking advantage of those well-meaning Ali’s.
But go ahead and support Project Weaponized Sorrow if you want to, it’s still a free country with strong Constitutional protections, right?
I’ll conclude today’s post with a comment I made to the Housing, Redevelopment and Community Programs Committee, which met on Wednesday to rubber-stamp $100,000 dollars for the Missoula Economic Partnership. Here’s the referral with a time-line mistake I just caught, since I’m pretty sure City Council isn’t meeting on Labor Day:
Isn’t it funny how the people who want MORE laws to intervene in people’s lives can’t even seem to follow their own open meeting laws, or provide accurate information to the public?
Since double-standards and a two-tiered legal system appear to be the new normal in this post-law nation of psychotic victims, I’m going to keep using my 3 minutes to match the vibe, like advocating for more accurate acronyms.
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I took this picture on the afternoon of August 27th, 2026, while floating the Bitterroot river.
What this picture shows is the backside of the Rocky Mountain Laboratory property which, for those who don’t know, is a Bio-Safety Level 4 lab (BSL-4) handling some of the world’s most dangerous pathogens.
So why is there a huge gap in the fencing?
Last year NPR reported on the dumb hicks in Hamilton to shame them for being weary of the super-smart scientists and all the money Hamilton should be appreciative of.
Rocky Mountain Labs has become an economic driver for the town, generating hundreds of millions of dollars for the local economy through spillover to other industries and retail.
Many residents are proud of the internationally recognized research unfolding at the National Institutes of Health facility. But a few locals resent what they consider the elitist scientists at the facility, which has employed about 500 people in recent years. Or they fear the contagious pathogens studied there could escape the labs’ well-protected walls.
That split widened with the COVID-19 pandemic and the divisions that emerged from mask mandates and vaccine development. In 2023, Matt Rosendale, a Republican who was then a U.S. representative from Montana, falsely tied the lab to the origins of COVID in an attempt to cut its funding.
Now, Hamilton is a prime example of how the Trump administration’s mass federal layoffs and cancellation of research grants are being felt in communities far from Washington, D.C.
The impact of budget cuts definitely reduced the amount of super-smart scientists working at Rocky Mountain Labs, but do budget cuts explain not finishing a chainlink fence to secure assets, like these trailers from the National Institutes of Health?
As of early May, 41 Rocky Mountain Labs workers had been let go or told their contracts would end this summer, and nine more had retired early, according to researchers employed by the facility.
KFF Health News spoke with 10 current or former Rocky Mountain Labs workers who requested anonymity to speak about information that has not been publicly released. The federal government has also slashed billions of dollars for research, including at least $29 million in grants to Montana recipients, ranging from university scientists to the state health department. That’s according to HHS data confirmed by KFF Health News.
This NPR reporting happened in May of 2025.
Six months later, a monkey apparently chomped a RML scientist, but the reporting of this incident took about a year to get to the public, where it was was amplified by Laura Loomer.
Huh?
Republican Sen. Tim Sheehy of Montana is asking for an inspector general’s review of a renowned federal research lab in his state after a monkey infected with Crimean-Congo hemorrhagic fever bit a worker there.
The employee, whose name was never made public, was treated after the November 2025 incident, did not contract the lethal tick-borne illness and soon returned to work. But a conservative animal welfare group, White Coat Waste, and MAGA influencer Laura Loomer have since urged federal intervention. They say the incident at the lab, a National Institutes of Health facility in a small town in Montana’s Bitterroot Valley, as well as their separate suspicions about one of its employees, demand investigation.
All this national attention and demands for an investigation are great and all, but what about the incomplete fencing? What the fuck is up with that? Are we looking at a Potemkin village here?
To better understand the accusations being made against the Rocky Mountain Lab I decided to scrutinize the “White Coat Waste” project, co-founded by a dude named Anthony Bellotti, a guy who likes cats and Republicans who want to stop animal testing.
Ok.
Who is this guy? And is he related to another Anthony Bellotti I found online? Hold that thought because Rob “CHINA LOVER” Chaney wrote an article about ANOTHER Rocky Mountain Lab controversy that emerged recently, and Chaney’s reporting includes highlighting the work of the White Coat Waste project. Hmmm.
From the link:
RML’s latest controversy arose this week when the U.S. Department of Justice arrested and charged two of its researchers with smuggling monkeypox virus samples into the United States and lying to investigators. That came on top of accusations by an animal welfare advocacy group called White Coat Waste Project Inc., which published an “exclusive whistleblower report” alleging that the facility, part of the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases, was covering up accidents involving exposure to dangerous pathogens.
The specific accusations have drawn attention from congressional Republicans, including Montana Senator Tim Sheehy. But they have also illuminated a larger debate over animal research during a time of deep political polarization amid an Ebola virus outbreak that has killed hundreds in Africa and following a hantavirus infection that killed several passengers on a cruise ship in early May.
White Coat Waste is a registered nonprofit that raised $5.9 million in 2024. Besides its campaign against RML, White Coat Waste claimed credit for pushing several measures against federal lab testing on animals in the 2026 Farm Bill. It included cuts to funding for animal testing collaborations with China, Russia and other countries. WCW has listed past accomplishments of defunding the Department of Veterans Affairs labs that research dogs and ending a Food and Drug Administration monkey nicotine addiction project.
Further down we get more details on the “12 Monkeys” scenario that included two of those super-smart scientists flying on a crowded plane before getting caught and criminally charged:
“These NIH experts apparently broke our laws by smuggling viral pathogens on a packed commercial airplane from an outbreak in the Republic of Congo,” Gorgon stated in the press release.
If convicted, the two men face up to five years in prison. The release does not say if the researchers remain in custody or when they may appear in court. It does note that the two are innocent until proven guilty.
“We will remain fiercely vigilant in neutralizing biological threats — or otherwise — and continue to hold accountable those who jeopardize the safety and security of the American people,” Customs and Border Patrol Director of Field Operations Marty Raybon said in the DOJ release.
But the incident also reflects a long-standing suspicion, since the 2020 COVID pandemic, that government researchers are either carelessly or deliberately tinkering with deadly diseases for unknown and possibly evil purposes. That has been a chronic tension for RML workers, who have spent years building community trust that they are handling dangerous pathogens to help the public, not harm it.
Is the community in Hamilton right to be suspicious? Yes, I think they are, and they should ALSO be suspicious or organizations like the White Coat Waste project, especially if their Tony Bellotti is the son, or some other family relation, of this Tony Bellotti:
The locations Tony Bellotti went to in South America, and when we went to those locations, seems significant in terms of U.S. hegemonic power projection, especially when you factor in the Rockefeller Foundation.
With support from the Rockefeller Foundation, he initiated an in-depth investigation of the pests ravaging the cassava root (also called manioc or yucca). Cassava had been called an “orphan crop” because of how few in the research community paid attention to it.
In 1970, Tony and the Centro International de Agricultura Tropical (CIAT) team discovered that by spraying a purée of virus-infected hornworms (nicknamed “hornworm sherbet”), they could drastically reduce the damage to cassava from hornworm (Erinnyis ello) larvae and similar agricultural pests. The treatment proved both inexpensive and highly effective.
Returning to our present day, the effort by Montana’s Senator, Tim Sheehy, to get accurate, relevant information was NOT helped by psycho-bitch, Laura Loomer, who made VERY concerning claims back in May about an impending Ebola release before shifting her focus to getting Milo deported.
The incident reflects a growing distrust of institutional science. In a May 17 post on X, blogger Laura Loomer claimed that “Fauci holdovers” were “about to unleash Ebola in America in an effort to undermine President Trump’s second term with another pandemic so they can steal more elections.” She continued that the “whistleblower letter” allegations about RML revealed a “cover-up about illegal virus smuggling by Trump-hating, foreign-born NIH animal researchers and a monkey bite incident that exposed a staffer to a deadly virus at an NIH lab in Montana.”
I don’t think the Loomer focus is inconsequential, nor the claim I heard recently on a livestream from the “conspiracist”, George Webb, that his followers have “boots on the ground” in Hamilton. For those unaware of Webb’s claims about the origins of the Covid-19 pandemic, here’s how one local media outlet framed his accusations back in April of 2020:
Maatje Bensassi and her husband are at the center of the elaborate conspiracy, which has been promoted online by George Webb, a conspiracy theorist who has nearly 100,000 subscribers on YouTube.
Webb has falsely claimed, without any evidence, that Maatje brough the virus to China when she competed as a cyclist in the Military World Games in Wuhan, China last October. Maatje has denied that she ever tested positive for the virus.
Six months later, comments under Webb’s YouTube videos have involved several threats of violence.
The conspiracy theory has even reached China. Webb has been featured in the country’s state media, which has sought to deflect blame for the COVID-19 pandemic.
If we’re talking conspiracy theories, then allow me to conclude this post with one of my own, which goes something like this.
Let’s say the people at the top know something is coming, like a cyclical cataclysmic event, and in order to freely move to their fall-back positions, like converted missile siloes in Montana, then a false outbreak from the Rocky Mountain Labs could provide the PERFECT excuse to quarantine local populations and keep them inside and ignorant about what’s happening.
Obviously, I hope I’m wrong.
If I am NOT wrong, though, and something happens, then I suspect the public will be thrown into an information blackout that could look something like what Gary, Indiana, went through recently, which hardly anyone outside of Gary, Indiana, knew about until after the power started coming back on two weeks later.
Gary’s problems with infrastructure were clear long before the storm rolled in. Over the past decades, as deindustrialization has shrunk the city’s population and tax base, its infrastructure has crumbled too. NIPSCO has a monopoly on Gary’s electricity, and a 2025 analysis by the Citizens Action Coalition, a consumer-advocacy organization, found that NIPSCO customers were already paying the highest bills of any of Indiana’s five investor-owned electric utilities; last year, NIPSCO was approved for another rate increase to upgrade power lines and technology updates. Even though low-income Black households tend to spend more of their incomes on utilities, they are disproportionately affected by electric-grid failures and face slower restoration times after extreme weather events. (NIPSCO did not respond to questions about its infrastructure investments or its rates.)
Each day that the lights stayed off added to the disruption in people’s lives. David Rucker and his wife, Tiffany, told me that they’d had to drive about an hour every day to Chicago to charge his BiPAP ventilator, which he needs to breathe when he sleeps. The device runs only four hours when it’s battery-powered. Although Gary is only about 30 minutes away from the south side of Chicago, the journey takes twice as long, because their car’s transmission needs to be fixed. “The money we would’ve spent to fix it, we don’t have,” Tiffany said. “Now everything is depleted. The storm has taken a lot—mentally, physically, and monetarily.” Their power was restored on Monday night at 10 p.m.
Another benefit for Big Sky billionaires hiding out behind an iron information curtain is that a false outbreak would keep people AWAY from Montana, especially if information can be hermetically sealed inside a sort of geographic faraday cage.
The power to control narratives is essentially the power to control minds, so, after studying this meta-topic of narrative control intensely for six years, I think I have a better grip on the capabilities of narrative manipulation than most, and what I’m seeing with the Rocky Mountain Lab is raising several red flags.
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Two years before Lindsey Clancy murdered her three children I got a lesson in feminine accountability from my ex-wife, who successfully flipped getting caught violating our parenting plan into somehow casting herself as the victim because she was worried about my reaction when I found out my daughter had already been introduced to a new boyfriend before I even knew this person existed.
Here’s the language of our parenting plan stipulating how introductions to new romantic partners SHOULD be conducted:
And here’s the text I got after my mother let it slip that my kids were being introduced to a romantic partner behind my back:
Amending the parenting plan would have taken money, which I don’t have, so when other violations have happened–like not honoring the date I should be informed about summer vacations–I just have to accept it.
Actually, it should probably be amended to something like Mother shall have priority to do WHATEVER SHE WANTS TO DO, because that’s my current reality for the foreseeable future.
My ex-wife still has a good relationship with my Father, who recently confirmed he wouldn’t allow me to see my own daughter because of how openly and honestly I’ve communicated my hatred of him. Since my father’s house is the place where I get to see my kids (who I have uncontested, 50/50 custody of), his control and recent mocking of my limitations haven’t improved how much I resent this man.
Daddy is correct, I don’t have a car or the gas money to drive to Seattle to pick up my own son from his trip to Japan. I don’t even have the ability to leave the state of Montana without permission. And because my limitations have made retirement a drag for Daddy, I was told, at one of my lowest moments, that Daddy is putting his house on the market and fleeing town.
Here’s his reasoning:
I’m putting this dirty laundry out for others to see because I know my family is not the only one being destroyed by the larger forces we won’t collectively rise up against.
Before 2020 I had come to terms with my why my father was emotionally retarded and financially controlling, but the “pandemic” changed all that. I stood up against IMMENSE PRESSURE, not just for me but FOR MY KIDS, who Daddy thought should get jabbed to keep him safe. Any consideration I had for this man was obliterated after that and it never returned.
Amidst this pressure to jab my kids my ex-wife’s resolve faltered because she wanted to keep riding around in airplanes like the privileged brat she turned out to be. Thankfully THE MAN in the house stood strong, and my kids are healthier because of it.
When I asked to simply be a part of the conversation with my own kids about Grandpa fleeing with Grandma to another city, I found out those conversations were already happening, again, behind my back, just like finding out yesterday my ex-wife is house shopping.
It must be nice to NOT have to adhere to any legally-binding documents when you know the father is a broke loser despised by anyone who matters in this stupid fucking town.
In America your rights begin as an extension of your bank account, and they expand on the cultural currency of victimhood, which brings me to my final point: Patrick Clancy’s lawyers should aggressively litigate EVERY WOMAN who implied he’s somehow responsible for the killing of his three children. Every. Single. One.
If that doesn’t happen, the American family is cooked.
I hope my own family can find the peace they are looking for, wherever they think that may be, but I learned something critical in 2020 that I won’t soon forget, and that’s how much those larger forces–the powers and principalities a supposed Christian man, like my Father, should be more discerning of–HATE HUMANITY, and what better way to destroy us than making the already difficult task of men relating to women, and vice-versa, totally impossible.
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